Hitmakers Audition!!!!
So, I uploaded a video I made (with my photographer/videographer Chad Blockley) for this huge audition for a new show on Bravo called “Hitmakers”. A couple hours after I posted the video, I got a call that they loved me and the video and would like to invite me to the “VIP Line” at the audition. Meaning, I got to choose my time I could come in and not have to stand in the huge line. WOW! So, as you can imagine, I was, and am pretty excited. I don’t always like to share these moments- because it’s so intimidating and I feel so vulnerable. It’s almost like- if I allow myself to feel excited, and share that excitement with anyone- then the disapointment if it ends up not working out- feels so harsh. BUT I think it is important to write this down- and even if it’s only meant to be to get into that audition- it’s so great. I’m so thankful that I got called, that I don’t have to stand in line- so at least that’s great! Then, I’ll be playing LIVE in front of some Hit Songwriters and have that huge opportunity alone, let alone the possibility that I could make it onto the show.
I’m just having a hard time with all those feelings…or not hard, but just confused. Although one thing that is hard is- we had to cancel our family vacation to Yosemite to go to this. Yes, tis another sacrifice, but I guess I’m just already feeling those feelings of “But if I don’t make it on the show, then why did I cancel our family trip”….well, I was praying for clear direction all week- and then I got that phone call to come in to the VIP line…so I’m just trusting in God no matter what that at least it’s meant to be for me to be here this weekend regardless of the future.
I’m just writing all this to be honest and hoping that if you’re ever in a similar situation, that this will help you not feel alone. I wish I could say “Oh yes, I’ll definitely make the show” and the truth is, I feel 100% prepared for that and that I could totally do that and have been preparing for an opportunity like this for a LOOONG time, but the
