Split Personalities and Carpedium!
So lately I’ve been thinking about how I walk around during the day with my son in my “mommy” clothes. Normally no make-up with my hair pulled back and clothes I can move in-especially with a 16 month old son running around. It is sure a blast. Especially with his little car I push him around in. We have our little routine of walking(him driving :) up to the Coffee Bean and then back down the park and/or beach to play in the sand. It’s so awesome to be together.
And, then on nights I go to L.A. for an industry event, or band rehearsal or show- I sometimes feel like a completely different person! Mainly appearance- lol! I get clean (WOO HOO for showers!) do my hair, put on make-up, jewelry, and cute clothes. I promise, I don’t think someone on the street would recognize me as the same person. ha ha. And besides the total difference- I have to set my mind in a different way. It’s business, you know? It’s just an interesting change. Both people are me- but both different, but the same. My morals and personality don’t change, but besides my appearance…I don’t know!
So, this leads into my Carpedium (SEIZE THE DAY!) because as hard as I try to live in each moment, I’m constantly faced with the future, but not a promised future…I don’t know if this makes sense…but I’m just trying to enjoy my son, my husband, my life as it is now- even though I have these huge dreams and goals…I don’t want to miss out on the precious daily stuff that sometimes seems mundane, but I think in the future if I do go on tour or even have fame- I’m sure I’ll miss this.
I guess this has all been on my mind- so I’m learning what to focus on all while not letting go of goals and dreams. It’s an interesting balance. I want to pursue my dreams and make them happen but I definitely want to enjoy everyday with my precious family and not forget to reach out to others and not be selfish.
Ah….life. It is beautiful, even if confusing and stressful at times. I WILL focus on the beauty!
This is a pic of me and my husband pre-baby on a CARPEDIUM trip last minute to Pismo Beach a couple years ago! :)
